Too much has happened in the last few days to really know where to begin. The whole ex thing with the house has turned into a real mare.
Saturday, I had to sit there while a letting agent showed four diff families around my home and then told my ex I'd been rude to him. I was upset!!!! I was not rude, I even offered the tosser a cup of tea!!!! What did he expect? I mean what was it meant to be? Like "Hi, welcome! Come and check out my home, oh, by the way, my ex is kicking us out because we can't afford the rent you can. Oh, you're on benefit and they will pay the whole rent for you? That's nice" Bitter? Not as much as i should be.
No problem with benefit - have been there myself, but crap, when you are getting kicked out because you can't afford an extra 150 a month and you work full time and have to pay child care? Sounds stupid, but I earn too much for benefit but am in the shite place where I don't earn enough to live properly. I would be better off if I earnt less!!!! I just want out now.
Countless texts and calls have ended up with him turning up at my mums on sunday to give me a eviction notice. I told him it was written wrong so i offered to write it for him. This was a bad move as he only wanted to give me 4 weeks, but for council i need 2 months +. He was then nose to nose with me in the street, shouting at me and calling me fucking bitch, slag and all the rest you can imagaine. Now, my son didn't see any of this but heard it all and some of the other things were shamefull. Then he went to slap me round the face and got me on the jaw and threatened to smash my car up. He buggered off, the police were called and they went to his to arrest him. He was let out at midnight and what was the first thing he did? Call me!!!!! I just ignored the call but spent the next hour on my back door step waiting for him to turn up - he didn't but had yet another day of calls and texts - all being logged on bluebook - thank you o2. I live in *, but he works for another nearby force as a civie in the control room so he should know better. There wasn't enough evidence as was my word against his as he didn't hit me that hard - but if i had pushed it he could have lost his job, but I'm not that much of a bitch. maybe i should have!!!!!!!!! At no point did i shout or abuse him and i think that probably made him even angrier. * police can't beleive he is being so stupid. He is talking about using a soliciter to get the money he feels i owe. Will have to represent myself if it goes to court as again, earn too much for legal aid but not enough to pay for a soliciter. Fucking great.
As for the bloke I'm seeing, I've only been telling him whats been going on this last week - have kept it to myself as he's just too fucking busy to give a shit. Honesty and not seeing anyone else are the rules but there is no support from him at all. Don't ever kid yourself about "no strings" relationships, if a after a few months, there is no movement, there never will be. Wish I could be that harsh. Could just do with having him put his arms around me and to tell me cares. No chance. Think I need to move on from him too. Being used is a thought that springs to mind.
I have my boy, but he is a handfull on his own and I could really do with a bit a happiness in my life instead of feeling like a moaning miserable bitch.
There is gonna be some crap ahead but then hope things are seriously gonna get better. PLEASE?
