Saturday night......

special friend is fishing still and tucked up in sleeping bag to start fishing again at 3.30am....

Am sat here wondering what my next move should be...... landlord is an arse He has put in on the market and up for reletting as I can't afford in rent what he needs to cover the mortgage. The council wants him to give me 2 months notice ref section 21 of the housing act and he wants to give me 4 weeks notice as one of the 4 families that were shown around my house today want to take it up. I get seriously nasty texts from him and feel bullied and under pressure. Even if i get the 2 months notice, I could end up in emergency B&B - not nice. I mean, I work full time in a decent job and I can't afford to rent, how can that be. I don't go out often - sometimes for months at a time and I can't remember the last time I bought myself something. Worse than that, I can't remember the last time I treated my son to something nice.

have checked the legals and i have to wait for things to happen. i want to be proactive, but i can't. am so fucked off. am NOT feeling sorry for myself though.

this is such a big part of my life at the moment, its hard not to dwell on it.
need a keener distraction.....?